medical stuff

ashentara · medical stuff

I'm having a biopsy tomorrow for potential cervical cancer. Just feeling donw and depressed about it

TreeHeart

Of course we all hope it turns out alright for you. Big hugs and keep us up to date. I'll be thinking bout you.

SuperGinge

Aww manu *hugs* Hope it all goes well. I'll be thinking of you. <3

ashentara

thanks guys
the procedure itself is painless, just uncomfortable, which is good right
but the results take about two weeks.. not so good. it's the third time I go through that ordeal, and it doesn't get easier.

apparently i've got a potential cancer forming on my cervix but no one knows for sure when or if it will happen (though it-'s more a matter of when, apparenlty, given that both my grandmothers had the same thing). Ever felt like a time bomb?wham!!!!!!!!!!!!

SuperGinge

Just try to stay positive. And if it is cervical cancer, they've caught it early right?

Ham of the Problematique

Oh, Manu! My thoughts are with you.

SuperGinge

How did it go Manu?

ashentara

it went

I waited over an hour in the waiting room, does wonder to your nerves, I can tell you.
Now I have to wait about two weeks to get the results...

TreeHeart

Waiting for results like that is harsh. Do they call you only if there is a problem?

ashentara

yeah, if there's a problem, they call me or give me an appointment to discuss it directly with the doc.
If I get the all clear, it's gonna be a letter from the lab.

So let's hope for snail mail..

thanks for the support guys.

SuperGinge

*crosses fingers*
I'm thinking of you.

ashentara

goddammit, this is really turning into a bad week medically speaking for me.

Had a volleyball game tonight, pretty intense, 5 sets.. we lost, incidentally, but that's not the problem. Last season I got diagnosed with shin splint (periostitis), and had to stop exercising for about a month. It's basically an inflammation of the membrane surrounding the tibia bone in the leg. It's not a critical condition (ie you can't die from it, you can't get paralysed, etc) but it's very annoying. I thought I was cured after summer (having spent two months NOT playing volleyball at all).. and everything was fine until tonight.
I had to stop in the last set because it hurt so much. And now, about two hours later, it still hurts like a sob, and I'm guessing it will get better in a couple of days if I rest and avoid using my leg muscle too much (no trekking, no walks in the park this week-end). But it will start again on Tuesday during practice. I'm willing to bet on it.
So I'll go see a doc.. but this time I'm not settling on "rest only". Anybody suffered that kind of thing? It affects mostly joggers, runners, or people doing sports where there's a lot of accelerations/decelerations and jumps (tennis, volleyball, squash for the most part).
Anyway. I'll make an appointment on Monday and see where it goes from there. Maybe I can get Tom (my crush) to give me a massage ha ah
just kidding. Sorry about the vent.

TreeHeart

ouch Manu. I had to go to the doctor a few years back with bad knees, can't remember what it was called, but it was similar, not deadly, but if I did certain exercises he said I would be ok. Of course I am terrible at remembering to do them, so they are getting bad now again

And with all the walking I am doing in my new job I have different aches and pains in my feet and knees daily.

Doesn't help I kicked the wall with only slippers on last night, my toe is so sore!

ashentara

that's it isn't it! It's not deadly so we don't do the exercise routine and stuff very.. well, and well, it just keeps happening.
Saw the doc on Monday, he said like I thought it was periostitis, and told me to rest for two weeks (only exercise I'm allowed is swimming), gave me some meds to reduce the swelling and I have an appointment with a foot doctor lol don't know the word, someone who's gonna watch how I walk/run etc and maybe I'll have new soles or whatever for my sports shoes.
Just very annoying but nothing too bad I guess.

I'm more worried about Gab tonight, she has a fever, she was very... subdued tonight for lack of a better word, said her throat ached.. and everything ached a little... so I gave her some paracetamol but my mind is screaming "flu!!!!!!!!!!!" and I'm just panicking a bit.
Spoke to my mum, said that the flu pandemici thingy was really kicking up right now due to the recent drop in temperature. So i'm on Gab watch tonight. Good thing I'm not working tomorrow - I'll be able to take her to the doctor's or the ER if needs be

Helen

Manu I dont know about France but our NHS has put a thing on the web where you have to put in the symptoms and it tells you if it thinks you have the swine flu or not. I know this as the drs here at work are refucing to see students and telling them to do this. if it comes up with a yes then it tells you to go get tamiflu. They might be doing this in France too.

its all a bit annoying as they arent seeing students who are actually having other symptons and we have had a couple with tonsilitis that they said was flu

Hope your daughter is feeling better soon.

ashentara

This whole flu thing is just annoying isn't it. I mean we all get paranoid, and same here, they just won't see people who "think" they have the flu, you have to prove you have a fever etc.
Gab turned out alright, she was sick for about 24 hours but it's all gone now, so I guess that wasn't it. Though my dad (he's an ER doctor so kind of aware of all this) said it could very well have been a mild version of the flu. Said he'd seen a lot of people come into the ER with flu symptoms only to get better a day or two after.
Oh well we'll see I guess.

ashentara

Yayyyy!! Got the all clear for my biopsy thingy. Yipee!

Helen

phew must be a relief Manu =D

Ham of the Problematique

Ohh now that's a relief. Been worrying about you!

ashentara

thanks guys you're the best

Yeah it's a big relief (no kidding!!)
Now I'm seeing the foot doctor tomorrow, we'll see how that one goes.

SuperGinge

Aww that's such a relief Manu! Glad you're okay!

I've got my cervical cancer jab tomorrow. Eeep. =/

ashentara

the immunization thingy you mean?

SuperGinge

Yeahh. It wasn't as bad as I thought! Although it does hurt to lift my arm now. My next one isn't till 4th December, and my last one is sixth months from yesterday.

ashentara

Yeah, I always get weird reactions like that after a vaccine (unable to lift my arm, etc) but it's no big deal compared to the horrific stuff you avoid thanks to said vaccine!!

SuperGinge

Yeahh, my arms fine now apart from it twinges a bit if people touch it. Worth it though. Still not looking forward to the next one though. I hate needles!

ashentara

Oh I know what you mean
I had two jabs a couple of weeks ago, and both my arms were numb for days!

Ham of the Problematique

How on earth is a jab supposed to immunise you against cancer?!

ashentara

that's the new cervical cancer prevention thingy; not sure how it works but apparently it works. You have to be a virgin though.

Ham of the Problematique

Ah.. little hope of one for me then! Oh well. Interesting though. I may look it up.

ashentara

geez Louise, right now, my life sucks.

My bipolar disorder (which I've had for years) has reared its ugly end again recently.. and I'm really, really depressed (the down-low end of the disorder, the other end being the manic episodes, which thankfully, aren't too intense for me). The depression though.. is quite intense. Hard to manage.
So much so that my therapist put me on sick leave for a month (first time ever I'm on sick leave). Of course being a freelancer and stuff that doesn't mean much (ie I won't get allowances) but she asked me to play by the rules and not work for a whole month, so I can regain energy and crawl out of that deep, deep and dark well I'm in right now.
You know the worst part? I can't go to Paris next week, so I wont get to see Muse on Tuesday

I'm just mad and so tired and so depressed and everything. Great. just fucking great.

TreeHeart

I was just about to WAHOO you Manu on your news about the biopsy being clear, I will give you hugs too. I don't know what it's like to feel that low, but I hope you can get out of the darkness soon, we'll be here

SuperGinge

Like Karen said, we're here for you Manu.

ashentara

I know you are guys, and it feels really good

ashentara

good news, this new treatment I've been on for a couple of weeks for my bipolar twin seems to be working, I've been feeling better since yesterday. Yipieee

SuperGinge

That's great news Manu! Lets hope you keep improving!

Ham of the Problematique

TreeHeart

That's great Manu and good luck Hannah with the diagnosis.

ashentara

Ham of the Problematique

Yeah, it's a diagnosis of bipolar disorder with Asperger's syndrome.

ashentara

doesn't sound great does it.
Sorry Hannah.

We'll be able to chat about it though

Ham of the Problematique

Next appointment for me is on Dec 10th, but he said it'd take at least two more appointments.

Are you glad to be medicated Manu? Because I am really worried about it, I'm not sure that I want to be. I have heard a lot of bad things about bipolar medications apart from anything else.

Helen

make sure your Dr tells you all the pros and cons of the medication and any side effects it might have

ashentara

regarding the meds, it's hard to say. Up until two or three weeks ago I wasn't on any for the bipolar disorder... Now I've got the mood regulator thingy and a new AD better suited apparently.. my doc said to give it a month at least to see how it goes.

The side effects at first can be pretty daunting. But they don't last, that much is true. As for my health and the effect of the meds.. I guess it's too early to tell. I do feel better than a week or 10 days ago, but it's short term right now, hard to analyse. It's hard to really get a good grip of what's related to the meds and what's just normal ups and downs.

I do think meds plus therapy is a good solution. This therapy I'm going through is helping a lot, I can tell. I haven't had one single panic or anxiety attack in months. So yeah, ask your doc about the pros and cons, educate yourself on the net, you'll find plenty of info there, just don't pay too much attention to all the boards where people complain about this and that - it's different for every person. Try to stick to the "official" boards and also, to your guts. And you can always talk to me anytime about this or anything else, you know that