Cydonia

ashentara · Posted: Fri Dec 12, 2008 10:28 pm Post subject:

oh well 2008 (and it's not even over) has been mostly crap.
Lost a bf for the second time in a year (same bf I mean, we made up and gave it a new start, only he dumped me AGAIN a few months later)

been dealing with money issues for most of the year, except for a few happy weeks in September

my grandfather had an MI in October, he's fine now, but had us worried for a while

my grandmother (other side of the family) went from being ok with a few memory problems from time to time to downright dependant, and she's now in a hospital. They say she'll never come back home again

My two bros are in Paris, and I never get to see them. It almost looked like I wouldn't even see them for X-mas, but I was outraged and forced them to come spend a few days here

my love life is a mess

and I'm generally bored with my work, which will maybe soon not be my job anymore, as I'll probably have to find a new job, given that there's less and less work for freelancers (thanks to the big translation agencies out there)... so even though I'm swamped right now, and grateful for it, I'll have to consider doing something else, probably in the near future.

And Silverchair never came back to gig in France, as they promised.

And Chad is still dead.

Oops, sorry, got carried away

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SuperGinge · Posted: Sun Dec 14, 2008 1:57 am Post subject:

ashentara · Posted: Sun Dec 14, 2008 8:20 pm Post subject:

thanks sweetie

I think you're right, I'm gonna try and start the year with a positive attitude. Just being positive doesn't solve all the problems, but it can certainly help. Right now it's more of a "yay, whatever, bring it on, one more disaster isn't gonna make such a diff anyway" attitude, which is totally stupid, but I can't help it. I think I'm very tired too, my last real holiday was in May, and for only a week.. I've had time off since, but I never did anything with it, my stupid agoraphobia and anxiety preventing me from going too far..

I'm gonna need to start therapy again I think, because I'm at an all-time bad regarding anxiety.. to give you an example: my brother is currently on a plane flying to Atlanta (he's spending a week in the US for work), and I'm anxious - not because I fear the plane is gonna crash, no.. just because the thought of spending ten hours on a plane makes me feel so bad. And it's not me on the plane. Right? I do need therapy. Pfff.

On another subject, yeah, Alzheimer's is a terrible disease. My gran was just fine three months ago! I mean she would forget some stuff now and then, but nothing major, and really, she was fine, in good health and all.
Three months later.. her health is not so good anymore, she's very weak, and of course the memory problems are.. huge. She doesn't recognize her husband of 60 years most of the time, she confuses people (for instance she thinks Gaby is my mom's daughter, and I'm Gaby's sister)... it's terrible to watch her get a little worse every day.
She's now in hospital, awaiting a vacancy in a retirement home for dependent people (not sure of the terminology here, my English isn't up to par on medical stuff). Very sad. And I know soon she won't recognize us any longer. Yup, terrible disease...
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SuperGinge · Posted: Sun Dec 14, 2008 8:57 pm Post subject:

ashentara · Posted: Mon Dec 15, 2008 8:10 am Post subject:

I might try to something differenrt, therapy wise.

I did therapy before, but it was mostly psychoanalysis, stuff that takes years to yield any results you know, and I got bored halfway through (and didn't feel we were going anywhere) so I stopped going.
But I've heard of something called (I think) cognitive behaviour therapy, and it's supposed to be a different approach and to work particularly fine on phobias. I'll just have to try and find someone who can do that I guess..
Positive attitude: I WILL find someone who can help.

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SuperGinge · Posted: Mon Dec 15, 2008 7:43 pm Post subject:

ashentara · Posted: Tue Dec 16, 2008 8:13 am Post subject:

Yep, I'll definitely look into it and let you guys know how it goes

thanks for the support!
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SuperGinge · Posted: Tue Dec 16, 2008 6:42 pm Post subject:

ashentara · Posted: Wed Dec 17, 2008 10:25 am Post subject:

you're such a sweetie

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mr_x · Posted: Thu Jan 22, 2009 1:40 pm Post subject:

Manu!

Returning thread love for you!
How's life?
Hope things above are getting betterer

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www.last.fm/user/mr_x
http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=719030053

ashentara · Posted: Thu Jan 22, 2009 11:22 pm Post subject:

hey Chris

things are.. ok. Could be better, could be worse, I'm working on it though

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